Good on paper

And just when she thought everything was good-

and reflected how far they had come,

Around the corner lurked the reality that it may all be a lie.

We look good on paper she thought.

From the outside looking in, we seem happy,

like we have it all.

But we don’t.

Everything can change with an unexpected discovery.

Part of the past that won’t go away.

Maybe it was there all along.

What do they do now.

Walk away, or try to hang on.

When all the lies that have been overlooked start to add up to years of lies that cannot be ignored.

Has she been blind?

Each day waking up with that sick feeling in her stomach.

Has she been a fool all along.

Lied to, betrayed.

Yes. I know who you are. I am not proud to admit it, but I have been you before. Long ago, not realizing the gravity of what I had done, until now. Being on a different side of the situation definitely changes your perspective.

I know what it’s like waiting for that call. The fluttery butterfly false sense of love. Trust me, that feeling goes away in time. Hoping beyond hope that he might choose you. He did not then, or now.

Approach with caution and ask yourself- would it be any different. You see what has been done and you are wrong if you believe it would be any different for you.

I am not entirely blaming you. But I have a lot more time invested than you do. The chance to walk away was there, but we both stayed. He said you were nothing but an acquaintance. I think you are nothing. A diversion. A meaningless, empty shell there to stroke an ego I do not have time for, nor care to stroke.

Truth is, you do not have what it takes. You could never come close to the stuff that I am made of. You have no idea what it is like to love someone and hold on through the struggles, and being married is a struggle. Of course, you would not know that. You’ve been engaged several times, but never actually married.

It’s much easier for you to interfere with someone else’s life while hiding in the shadows. But I see you.

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About Reflections of a Super Stew

Ex-flight attendant turned army wife- Reflecting on the life of 2 flight attendants based in NYC. Travelling the world together, marrying the weekend after 911, Proving love conquers all as the adventures continue. Currently serving in the US Army. I reserve the rights to all written blog posts, and photos at https://superstew39.wordpress.com/ and https://www.facebook.com/superstew39
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